Balls out Balls in

I dont have very many true friends.

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 05:21:03 GMT

but i'm always open to give someone a chance to be very close & dear to me.

I'm used to you reciting it now. It made my stomach flipped.

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 03:52:13 GMT

The meeting between you and I was quite a random occurrence.

Frankly, I had never met someone so strangely quiet yet straightforward.
You told me to ignore everyone else and let go.

everyone saw it coming.

You keep my spirits so high.

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 06:03:31 GMT

I can’t get enough of you. You drive me wild!

Don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 13:57:35 GMT

Hola~ Miss me? Hehehe!
Ftw class chalet was not so exciting, I didn't enjoy myself as much like 2ea/1ea chalet. But I still love 3ea superhumans. Just that I wished the guys stayed, and I miss Sherman, Sean, Wu Wen. They could just make the environment livelier. Apart from that, I ate a lot. First day was quite happenin I must say. Second day? It was like as if we're going for Haizan's family chalet. Many thanks to her family for the food and stuff. Twin bike with Zayanah! Thanks to her I injured my foot, ): boo yeah. Zarifah's great! Haizan's great too. And we played poker cards. Zarifah taught us. I'm definitely a noob, selenger bacin. Zayanah plak macam paham! And it was mainly Zayanah, Haizan, Zarifah and I who conquered the bed. But Zayanah, she's so selfish and pushed me aside. So I just had to curl myself at the corner.

New moon just now with Z, Y, I and GV! Go figure who the hell lah. I somehow miss the bus I'm suppose to meet Y! Pfft. I'm late late late. Not so late lah. Just that they reached first. Okay soooooo, it was thumbs up. Still not satisfying. I expected too much. Hah, I've just updated my facebook status so you should know what is my review. Jasper, Wolf Pack, Volturi = HOT. HAHAHA. Bella should just die in breaking dawn, seriously. Poor thing for Jake and the others. Alice is sooooo prettaye! Speaking of this twilight stuff, I've yet to finish reading ECLIPSE. I have to return Haizan. And the book is like out of shape. BRRRHHHH.

I don't know if I'm going to quello insano gathering on 14 Dec. It was Fatin Athira that organise it. Sigh. Quello insano is like my childhood thang. so cute. I miss those girls, those 11 wives of mine ): They're like the kewlest chatters ever. Eversince most of us like break apart, I don't really mingle around with chatters any more. They're the only ones I like met and of course, for the past few years, I've always chatted with them from morning to night. They taught me many stuff, and I became a better person. Whenever my blog kana spam, a few of them whom I close with, will always help me attack the spammers back.

Singapore Idol is on Tuesday due to Seagames! Take note okay people? And I want Sylvia to win. Of course I don't really mind if Sezairi wins. Both have my support lah. But Sylvia has my full support. Damn she's hawt and sexy, with an outstanding powerful vocal yeah? I somehow miss watching Faizal Isa ): Boo.

I want your love, I don't want to be friends.

Fri, 27 Nov 2009 08:38:58 GMT

“ How can we still be friends when seeing you only breaks my heart again? ”
— You Keep Me Hangin’ On by The Supreme

I'll be there before the last echo of your voice fades away into the sky.

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 11:33:46 GMT

Today marks the 18th and ...

Happy 15th Birthday Shuying and Janelle (=

To shuying;

Even though I'm not close to you, I'm happy enough we're in the same class this year so the bonds are getting stronger. I am very open and if you're comfortable, you can always approach me whenever you're down and I'll be glad to lift the weight from your shoulders. I can't take away all the hurt and the pain that you hide. I will comfort you. Of course, you can say anything you need to, cry as many tears as it takes. Anyway, during your sad days, just remember that, your tears weren't meaningless and your prayers will be listened by God. Your road to happiness and meaningful life will be illuminated so never give up so quickly. You can overcome any challenges. Hope has not fled. Call on your faith to uphold you. Chase your dreams! I hope your day is full of hugs and love.

For love, remember, you deserve so much better. pnly accept the love you think you deserve.

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Today at singapore poly was okay just that in the morning I felt so sleepy and trying my best to keep myself awake ): Is hours and hours of lectures. Its too advance for me. Tomorrow we'll have that stupid apple pie again. I have to remind myself to bring my own breakfast meal tomorrow. Apple pie sucks ok! Well, experiment was funnnnnnn! and busride back to school was funneh. we recorded a very longggggggggg video! And my voice is like BREAKING. grr. oh yeah. during the lecture, i could even surf the internet lah. this is to keep myself awake! hahahaha. And hope Azirah is fineeee. We kinda keep getting sleepy now and then.

OMG SINGAPORE IDOL LATER. GOOD LUCK TOP 5! And all the best Sylvia (:
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I claimed to be strong but the reality is, I'm not. I lied when I said I could make it on my own.

I left to many little things unspoken, too many things never passed my lips.
I wasn’t beautiful once. You try to convince me, but underneath I am still a dirt now.
I've never got to fly. It was borrowed wings. I've only got a tiny piece of heaven with me.
Eventually, I'm going straight to hell. Perhaps someday, I'll bid a silent farewell.

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 14:07:13 GMT

EH HI.

Todehh is the first day of forensics science at Singapore Poly.
OH MY GAWD. I don't know how to adapt when its my turn.
I didn't know there are more than five food courts and there's Macdonald.
Hahahaha, blimey! Mac(L), everyday eat eat mac can grow fat.

Lecture was cool at first but it gets boring and boring. Azirah and I were close to falling asleep. Also, most of my classmates were feeling so cold inside the hawa-dingin room. hahaha. alright, then free mac breakfaaaaast! Blablabla. Then we had two hour break. Then it was practical. Its good cause we don't need to plot graph since there's COMPUTER hahaha. if not i'll be lazy. but the bad news is, there's gonna be tests and presentation. even though im okay in presentation (ive got no speech problem), it gives me shivers.

I don't want you to win lah -.- in case you know who im talking about. im also getting so sick of, aaah whatever lah. sg will make the wrong choice. i think is expected whose gonna win. time for miracles! (oh so adam lambert!) MARIAH CAREY ROCKS! the longest octaves. leona lewis too!!!!!! :D

Dammit. Why am I so obsessed with Singapore Idol. I miss HADY!!!! ): And of course, go syl go go! i should have taken photo with her that time. I'm so scared for the song choice ): ergh. Hopefully everything goes well this wednesday. If she's eliminated, i won't even wanna watch singapore idol any more, i won't be as enthusiastic manz. but then i would still go for the originality, Sezairi aka Airi! but stil. hahahaha. ):

alright. im addicted to all songs sang by sylvia. dammit manz. she's so cute. hahaha. so cute the singapore idol bloggers, kinda said that faizal got a crush on sylvia. actually, they look cute together and age doesn't matter! hahahs. but i dont think is true lah.

i watch 2012 alreay. its BLOODY GOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. AWESOME.with cool visual effects and stufffffffffff. but its so frightening, scares my ass off.

*ive been playing sorority life the whole dayyy? this game is so addictive????

alright whatever. happpy birthday weeky.

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 11:41:00 GMT

don't throw out the talents.

i'll be fucking pissed if Sylvia Ratonel is not in the top 2.

you can never say never

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 15:14:55 GMT

Nothing is gonna bring me down.
Disappointment.

OWWZ

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 12:27:38 GMT

:D
take a look.
closely.

run away to paris to change your name

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 09:12:04 GMT

I want to cut my hair this short.

Don't waste life frowning.

Hahaha. I don't understand why this Indonesian guy, yeah an indonesian.
He approached me and asked my name,
I typed my full name of course. Without my dad's name.
And he said he prefers call me Ria.
And I'm like, "ria sounds like the radio channel you know."
and I asked him to call me Rheya. But then he insisted on Maria.

WAH. The number of people calling me this Maria thing is increasingggggg -.-

make cookies and cupcakes whole day

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 07:35:08 GMT

via via

FANGS ARE FANTASTIC
So it has been ages since I last played the computer.
Had Malay O levels just now. I almost had a nervous breakdown.
Well. It won't be my first time anyway.
Okay I feel like updating at blogger. (if you wanna know how I find the paper)
&off to tumblr.
(p.s I didn't know I could sing.) hehehehe.
I still thinks my voice sounds ooookkkkaaayy if I were to sing properly.
^^
well. no one is at home now!
so lets singggggg~

whatTs me without you

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 13:08:57 GMT

I'm despondent. Getting fucked up with every single thang. Not sure if is pms-ish knncb attiude but my mood keeps fluctating now and then.

Let me recall what actually happen but ain't gonna be precise;

FEEL-SICKS (PHYSICS) was always a bore, but hilarious. Well, ray diagrams, and Mr Sim scares me ): He made it sounds Pure Physics in o levels gonna be so hard. Oh well, I'm not going to survive his qualifying test anyway -.- Is so expected even if I studied my ass for it! Pure bio is always biol. Did the smokers' experiment lungz thingy, and we didn't smoke at all dumbazzez! But it was pretty excitting. Afterall, the worst thing you would face is the smell and your throat will hurt big time if you inhale it. And then my friend ask teacher about shisha. I thought it was only water droplets kinda thing but teacher said is worst than smoking cause got the dunno what. aiya. Wasn't actually paying attention. I don't give a damn anyway. Oh other than that, weather is like super cold. Seems like I kept wearing my jacket. HAHA. Jolyn seah is very irritating!!!!!!!

Todaaaay was just bloody fry-daaay. Yeah, coicidentally met with Azirah and Cheng Bo again! Hmm. English first. Oral skills. Hah. Aww man. I love Mdm Ng! She's so dramatic and that makes the lesson so much livelier. Is her actions that are funneh and humorous. I brought along my kinder suprise (not kinderjoy) and it captured almost everyone's attention. Oh wellz, they were just wonderin cuz they thought kinder suprise had extinct. you know what i mean (: Jolyn seah and I crapped all the way! Hahaha. you idiot, my pronunciation is better than yours please you sexy voice girl. HAAA. luckily i wasn't called out. I would be giggling and grinning all the way instead of reading the paragraph. Ok shit. Chem did anions experiment. I hate experiments now since i screwed my first o level chem spa even though is simple. I tell you, I always screw up in major exams, don't know if its a curse or something . Recess . Before that, short meeting for forensics. 16-20 November. Azirah was shocked. She was chosen to be the leader. Haha. dah kena amek attendance. it is held at singapore poly from morning till evening but lunch is provided.

Oh yeah. SS. Mr Tan wasn't there. So yeah. we just did corrections. BElieve it or not, old super hilarious moments suddenly came flashing into my mind one by one. I dont know whats wrong sia. And then I kept giggling duh, who won't. the whole class was actually distracted . the room was so cold lahn -.- hah. and then everyone kept looking back glancing at me. norris kept telling me to shut up. haha. but iwas til copying and it was my worst handwriting ever. so freaking humongous i tell you. but zayanah as slower. thanks to me making her laugh too. hahaa. she was like, "whats wrong with you, why" this and that. haha. because nobody had a single clue why im laughing all of a sudden. thats how crazy i am. hehe. then took malay practice papers. i just don't seee whats the point. i know my malay sucks big time and i have to accept this painful fact. i asked teacher regardles what the result is going to be and she allows me to retake. well, if i retake thar doesnt mean my score is going to be good. ergh. i dont know. why my malay is not as good as my friends and why it ain't superb as my sis. why can't i do expository compo? why my narrative is so typical? why am i actualy siting for o levl maly this year? shit. shit. shit. shit. shit. i already know malay oral (which ive got no practice throughout my sec years), my lc ALL SCREWED UP. fuckkkkk. ))))): i regret crying my eyes out to get into hmt -.- cuz i dont see whats the point of it. i doubt ill be entering jc since my sis makes me feel so tramautized .

tomorrow maybe i might be going out to jurong point. hehe.

my sis says she has never felt so pressurized and scared before. i mean like yeah. even if she gets to enter uni, overseas or what, the fee would be damn expensive. and imagine going there alone. especialy if you got no malay friends. wow, thats harder.

p.s I HATE USING MY SI'S LAPTOP. the keyboard makes me life difficult and yeah. the whole thing sucks. sory for any spelig errors. ha.

whats me without you

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 12:40:15 GMT

I'm despondent. Actually more like I'm fucked up with every single thing happening in my life. I don't know if pms or what but my mood fluctates now and then.

Let me recall what actually happen;

I remembered yesterday physics lesson was sucha bore. Always. But it was hilarious! I love to tease Mr Sim! (: Pure bio, well, did experiment on smokers' lungs. We didn't actualy smoke lah dumbazzez. Hah. Exciting but the smoke, I assumed I kept inhaling it, so yeah, it hurts my throat ): I'm lazy to elaborate further.

I don't see whats the point of doing those malay practice papers. Is never like math. I think is too late to practice. I'm definitely gonna retake if my grade is unsatisfying. Who cares whatever people say if Cikgu says I could still retake. I mean I've gotta accept the fact my malay actually sucks big time.

kisses

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 08:21:31 GMT

ohhlala marheyaaaa!

I shouldn't slouch and slouch and slouch. I'm already small with narrow shoulder and I'm slouching. Haha.
Sooo, if I stand up straight, I'm actually taller than some people ^^ Just that I'm small, heh.

Rigggggght, there's nothing much to say. Now its already november! Can't wait and so eager for class chalet. Also, forensic workshop for don't-know-how many days. I'm recommending you to read Fatal Seduction ll. Thanks, my hatred for men is worst now. Lol. But I still ....... hehehe :D

I've been singing and getting crazy with the song "EGO". HAHAHA!
whats with primary school maths, getting tougher? i ain't kidding yo, primary five students have to buy calculator, its compulsory. Oh shiatzzzzzz. And then people kept failing. Ergh.

yesterday I teased meera, from meena chi to meera chi! hahaha and she calls me kueh koci ? aww .
wani owns the kewlest twilight back scenes or whatever book . check it out at the famous popular, 30+ bucks.

And ohhhh, there's too many people compliment me saying I smell nice? I mean are you sure? -.- HAHAH.

Zayanah is so, a pain in the ass. Heh jk

you know sitting beside carrie just now, was greaaat.
im not exactly happy with the chalet. no. as in the place. i hope this one is gonna be great. but i still know i will have lots of fun. but i just waaaaaaaaant, ARANDA OR ALOHA. haha. but never mind :D we're gonna rawk the house.

and girl, you're so wrong that i like/love got a crush on him or whatever. i just treat him like how i treat other guys and you can just call me a slut. thank god your 'good' friends 'informed' me. haha. aren't they nice? is it so nice to gossip me and stare at me from top to toe whenever im not looking at you?

this thing has been going on.
ive been nice keeping quiet about all this.

HAHA.
Pure bio lesson rawks just nowww. Pure chem too.

yes, im going to drop hmt. i talk to my mom already.
if im satisfy with this year's grade, i wont even continue with hmt next yr -.-
argh. i dont know if it benefits me? i mean, i still get it the same grade as my english.
and the only thing that pushes me was my paper one. and this year, who don't want to get an A1??!
if an A2? idk man. i feel like retaking stilll. i can still retake next yr at june or at the end of the year.
this year during june, many said it was so easy till students my school many get distinction.
well. if I get a B4, ill retake. if i get c6 the next time, i wont retake. because yeah, maybe B4 its my standard.

but ive achieved an A* for psle why this one its hard for me to ace?!!! is too late to start a malay blog now to practise. cuz for english, i think i use to have a blog so im very exposed. but still, people who doesnt have a blog still scores well? so whats the pointtttttttt. argh.

yayyy. ill be watching sg idol tonight. and this saturday, morning might be heading to gym.
but ive got no sport shoe, howw.

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 09:14:59 GMT

Enrique Iglesias, this spanish man :D

i know damn macho!

Like an oncoming wave or a rushing storm,

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 06:58:29 GMT

(Okay now, freedom of speech!)

where only the darkness can survive

Like fuuuuuuuuckkk. Hewuuuu ^^

You wanted to pressure me to be perfect.

Things were looking so promising and fine but maybe God decided things needed stirring up a little for me? & I am only fifteen.

Pressure is definitely building inside. Anxiety is setting in again and again, never going away. My brain can collapse and explode any time. Ergh. I've made my choice. I'm dropping higher mother tongue. Cause I'm not feeling any good for my malay O level which is one week away. Its too late to drill me now. I know, its too early to say without trying, but I'm a human who can't handle pressure. Oh God, if only I've a strong endurance. Pressure; Your desire to make me shatter. How could I ever overcome this vexation? A never-ending annoyance. God knows how I have suffered obsessively all this while. From getting insane due to homeworks, and then suffering stress due to exams, of course losing weight, and now this. Can I have someone's shoulder for me to cry on? To family? I suppose there would be nothing but ........ an unceasing flow of criticism. Also, comparisons. I know I'm not that intelligent. I know where I stand. I'm not capable of fixing myself either, pushing my problems aside won't work too.

So down. So tired. So over this. Letting go of every dream. The reoccurring strings of thoughts and questions of my future plague me with doubt.

I want a place to feel secure, where life would be less deranged. I want a place where I can find all the answers to life and they key to success.

Come to think for it, english is getting increasingly important ):
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Maybe I should just continue singing,
well, it makes me feel better anyway.

I need a respite.

she's like a star

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 13:40:20 GMT

my pretty favourite boy

SPLENDID! ALRIGHT. IM NERVOUS FOR UPCOMING MALAY O LEVEL. ITS LIKE I'M NOT AS SMART AS MY FRIENDS ): I WANTED TO GET AN A1 badly. They said is the easiest subject you can ace. haishhh. idk how to study for it. it seems no matter how hard i studied, it still depends on my luck. its just natural for my friends to be better than me in malay. haish.

anyway yummeh, i just came back home :D ate seafood at famous chai chee restaurant with family.

my mum said i can sing 'Already Gone' by kelly clarkson. since young, i actually can reach high notes. just that, im too shy to sing in front of people, as in sing properly lah. hahah. and did i tell you ive join karaoke contest (malay) when i was in primary school? and actually managed to get third :D also, duet with aishaina and managed to clinch the second place ^^ who knows im so talented. hahaha.

shall discover me more :D

on a lighter note, its a dread to come to school for intensive tomorrow ): saved me!

Happy Birthday Nur Zayanah Bte Md Hazin Khan & HELLO LAST DAY OF SCHOOL, NOT.

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 17:56:32 GMT

Today is a day to laugh and rejoice

Alright today I'm like the happiest kid alive because I've made my best friend feels like she's over the moon and I'm so cheerful too (maybe I came across too much CHEERS store today, okay inside joke) so why don't you all spread the joy campaign?

FOOO YOO. Today was like so call the Last Day of School. Padehal-padehal eh? I board the bus late but Cheng Bo was with me, okay we did nothing please. Apparently he kinda missed the bus. I was crossing he said the bus was blocked by this double-decker bus. Then he planned to take 119 and 112, and I'm like noway. Never mind lah, today last day of school, its okay no detention I guessed. Oh geez, I woke up five plus ah, so there's reasons I was late. Then during assembly, instead of reading our books, gossip. Hell yeah, Carrie loves jokes, and maybe I've got no sense of humor for it. Putting on effort to please and make me laugh, she explained me the chinese comics which were so funny? Okay lah, a little funny but that won't made me laugh that much. Perhaps I just slow getting it.

WE WON THE BEST CLASS AWARD $400. Congrats to the I&E also! HIP HIP HOOOORAY YAY YAYZZZZ. I tell, three times in a row I'm EA win, well for my batch lah. HAHA! Cause we got the class spirit and enthusiasm. (and ehem maybe got me inside, be lucky if you're in my class!) So whats more? CHALET LAH OF COURSE. I guessed so ^^ Not to forget we might most possibly be having TWEEYAY OH EIGHT REUNION TOO! Weeky, Zhi xiong Sky, Shermieoooo, Wu Wen and many more are truly missed! Apart from that, I was definitely screaming like mad behind Carrie. I asked her, "If 3EA wins, scream ah?" HAHA! Because we checked the old board, we were the third but Mrs Thia kindly told us that she had not key in the CIP points that time. Be jealous >:) OH I'M EVIL. (Psst i know, 3ea could bond together from the starting of the year. I kept my hopes high. (: And now all of us are as tight as glue going through every thick and thin!)

After which, we were told to settle down in our new classes for 2010. Glad everyone is promoted to 4EA! Our class is on the first level again. Thanks to Missy Zarifah Choy Zackaria. Well, I honestly don't mind. To me studying? It doesn't depend much on the environment/aura or whatever shit either. It depends on yourself if wanna focus and be attentive in class. Mdm Jayanti spoke in a slumber kinda way that we behaved like 2N2. Firstly, we sang a birthday song for Zayanah. And then, I bought the poppers(okay I don't know whats that), and passed to people like Qi Shan, Gilbert, Babasingh and my other peeps to pop it at her face. Well, I did the first one. HAHAHA. No doubt, we were behaving like some hooooligans~ Poor thing Zayanah! After that, don't know from who started it first (probably meera ;)). You know the poppers the papers all, in small circles right, they played and quickly placed inside people's clothes without them realising or not lah -.- or in a violent way. Sanje did that to me. And I can't seem to find that piece :P

I DID THAT TO ZAYANAH AND LORD KNOWS I FELL HARD ONTO THE GROUNDDDDDD -.- But I managed to put that piece of shit inside her shirttttttttt. Well. Oh well. And Mdm Jayanti was right in front of me -.- We were snapping pichas like nobody's business. Then the bell rang, 9.30am!

So we don't kasi zayanah chance nyer! I remembered having this dare with her. Since she hated beansprouts aka tauged to the core, I took the effort to ask my mom politely to boil at least 15 beansprouts so I could bring her to school and asked her to friggin put it inside her mouth, chew, eat, swallow! HAHAHA. Alright, thanks mummeh! I picked 16! And I TOOK VIDEO. Then she was told to eat 15 of it. euw. FAINTS. and the last piece, she said she'll choose two people to rock-paper-scissors and eat it. Unfortunately and how mean she was, she chose me first, followed by Meera. AND I LOST. LIKE SHIT. I hate beansprouts sooooo much too. AND IN THE END. I KANA. OMG. IT TASTE EUWWW. I just ate ONE OF IT. and I feel like dying. HAHA. SAD FOR YOU ZAYANAH. But LOVES YOU FOR BEING SPORTING! Remember, its very healthy for you due to the nutrients! and be lucky, i didn't ask you to eat it RAW. Gave her the pack of kinder buenos I bought for her as a reward! IM NICE.

had a long chat with mr sim. same stories but inspirational. thanks for your motivation, advices! (: Lalalala, I told him, I ~~strictly~~ must be smarter than my husband. HAHAHA. then he said, "you wanna feed him?" haha. then im like, " they're like so ego." lol. then it seems like he admits it. hahaha. and moreover, he admits, his wife's qualifications is higher (:

After that, we waited for her to went home with Sanje. Cause I've planned somehing interesting and memorable. I told Sanje first and glad the others (Haizan Meera Azirah) joined us! Plus her oh-so-sporting-and-cool mum. She was the mastermind behind all this (thats meera's line). HAHA. Okay. We went to Mac first and to get my photos print. (my card is pathetic, im not so good in art. and it was very last min. you wanna know more you ask me. hahahaha.) Okay, secrets all out here okay. No hard feelings. Along the way, bummed into Fahrul and company, also saw shermaine, maverick and some other peeps. all the way, sanje was contacting with zayanah's mom, omg cute eh they. Sanje bought coke, I bought iced milo! Msged Zayanah for fun and tried to psycho her -.- HAHAHA. I don't think it works. LOL. Alright, then haizan ate her first kinderjoy given by me. HAHA. she kept thinking the two 'ballz' are boobz. And azirah is being so cute too.

Zayanah's mom msg and there's a huge change in plan. I was so scared that if our plan were to be flawed. I don't want she to suspect so much lah. Expect the unexpected. Azirah said, unexpected the expected? LOL. she said sounded better or sth. WEIRD. went to zaya's house. she went to her neighbour's hose. hid our shoes, bags inside the store room. along the way, haizan held her cakes in the hands. while azirah, sanje, meera and I were acting like some retards. We hoped not to take the same lift with her if not it will spoil everything. So, from 10th floor we went up like five floors. tiringggggggggggg~ grr. then inside her room, we were panicking crazily like some morons :O hahaha. her mom shocked us a couple of times. meera held the big popper which i bought. im like taking pictures with meera's camera. azirah used my hp. and then yeah. we placed the cake on her chair. haha. should witness her first reaction when she came in. HAHA. OMG. i'll show you the video alright :D then i purposely bought the magic relighting candles, hehehe! (wait i dont know where the rest goes? :O). LOL. SEE HER STUPIDITY. funnnnnneeeeeeeh. and thanks to her mom for the pizzas, root beer floaaaaaat, nuggets, french fries! haha. haizan has been yearning for pizzas rupernyer! and then we got wild sabo-ing each other with the chocolate cake. meera kana the worst among us apart from zayanah. tu lah! hahaha. after feeding each other (aww sweet) and chatted and menikmati makanan, zayanah and meera somehow got stuck into the toilet after saboing each other. you know why? they jus could help it. AZIRAH AND I were being so cool, we closed the door quickly. hahaha. let them two wipe each other's faces with cakes. and omg. i heard meera lay on the floor eh? zayanah, what had you done to her? :O crazy. God knows what you two did inside. hehehehe. Then, Zayanah's mum allowed meera to revenge at zayanah by whaaaaaaaat? hahaha. the leftover rootbeer, MEERA BETOL BETOL TUANG at zayanah's bodehhh. hahaha. recorded by me, duhh :D hahahaha. meera was so happy eh? ((: still not satisfy gitu si chocolate cake girl nie!

hahaha. then yeah. went homeeeeeeeee. yana and sanje went to vivo first while i met haizan & meera. wooohoo. watched 'this is it' movie. it was literally bittersweet. idk whats wrong with yayana all of a sudden whispered to me and said, "i find him very sexy." HAHAHA. OMG. im like, duh, he is sexyae. but yeah, the way she said, is soooo cheeky. -.- idk what she fantasy. somehow both of us were jealous he kept touching the women -.- and yah, i laughed hard the most. some parts the dance moves and actions sungguh tak perlu :B reallllllyyy. but it was great overall :D i kept singing, tapping my feet. and yeah, IM SAD THA SOME OF HIS SONGS I WAS YEARNING TO SEE/HEAR somehow didn't appear. pfft. Cuci mater at harbourfront centre and vivo. Of course, went into ToysRus and guessed what, I'm not that embarrassed to wear the transformer mask alright -.- HAHA. then home sweet home here.

my mom and zayanah's mom, frm their eyes only, looked somehow the same :O

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To Nur Zayanah Bte Md Hazin Khan! Again, Happy 15th Birthday! Another year passes, you mature and grow wiser. Please, stop being so childish can? I got lots of things to say. You know, you've been really a great influence in mah life. Both in a good way, and of course bad way (HAHA). And how things like memories always stay, oh how I remember the stories you told. All those jokes, nonsense, craps, times of merepek-ness, acting like fools/freaks during lessons, laughing at people, judging people, its always with you. Never thought it could be so fun. And that you've such sensitive cheeks and kiddy behaviour, the way you blushes, your attitude problem, you hate tickles, you hate it when I "massage" that way on your shoulders, you often laughed at me due to my clumsiness especially in terms of song lyrics. Furthermore, laughing at me because I do not know latest songs, but I know now! Laughing at my pronunciations. How naughty and adorable can you be. But I'm just too nice not to have any hard feelings. But not to forget, you always give in and tolerate my juvenile behaviour. Tsk? HAHAHA. You are awesome, inimitable, so unique (like what you said) and hard to find a replacement. Also, distinctive. You've helped me through life this three years, through sadness and strife. Remind yourself that its okay not to be perfect, you perfectionist -.-

Stay on the sunny side of life! Your life is worth it. Dream of what you want, and make it happen, hunneh. You rarely tell me your problems and how you felt though sometimes its pretty obvious you're hiding, cuz im sure every humans has their weakest moments. Just stay strong independent woman! Don't hide when you're at your weakest cause your dearest friends are here for you! May you find what you've been searching for. And you be always blessed in all you say and do. Be who you want to be. Believe what you to want to believe. See what you want to see. Hopefully, you feel the love being sent your way. You're so good at making me smile,
I'm so happy to meet you back! MCM FATED GTUK KAN. Hah smirks! If there is one day to remember, remember this day.

i hope you sincerely love my tak seberapa gifts.

HEAL THE WORLD BLABLABLA....YOU'RE NOT ALONE....

Love,
your ever-so-amazing friend,
Me.

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Love songs just kill me. Hopes of love had flown away. The thought of not having you makes me want to die. Dreams about you seem like reality, I know it’s my head playing tricks on me.

You said, "I prefer to remain arrogantly alone." It took all my strength not to cry.
You can’t seem to even see that.

OLDDDDies

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 14:00:56 GMT

Okay. I found some pictures in my old files!

I don't know when is this, but they so damn cute can? (:

my mr!

introducing, my supermum! :D

whats with the commotion?

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 11:09:38 GMT

Knowing that holding all these emotions is just another style.

I did not intend to come today since I was so sleepy. As I woke up, staring in stupor at the blank space, I could not resist the This morning felt unbelievably cold and I could feel the numbness in me. Truly frightening to receive my predictable results. My hopes, fears, worries, and dreams. Everything was crashing down on me. Easing the tension inside my mind seemed virtually impossible.

Anyway, Carrie, Jolyn and many others said I smelled nice? Well, it was naturally. HEHEHE! Yes, they're so weird. I could not help but to moan that I was bloodeh tired. I was informed that more than eight people did not attend school yesterday? Awesome (L) HAHA. Alright, so, English, Mdm Ng came into the class! She's so beau-tee-fool today with her dazzling earrings on. Thats what I told Carrie. Can't get my eyes off her, ooops! Sounds wrong. Apart from that, she insisted and urge us to get an English Tuition. We were literally banned from seeing out essays. My name and a few others were highlighted. Just because I scored a 19 for my essay, you called that good? HAHAHAHA. Make me laugh. It shouldn't be highlighted. And hopefully, my essay won't be printed out for model essays or something. That would absolutely embarrassing, I'll freak out at that instant if I found out. It was unfair cause other classes english marks were moderated. Our class most passed so did not moderate that much. I heard that this year one word topic for essay o level was POWER? OMG SO VAGUE CAN? And the letter writing was difficult. That was what Mdm Ng told us. Carrie somehow told me that our class performed better but not necessarily well compared to all the previous years batch? You gotta be kidding me? Alright so. Recess then.

Mrs Thia could take a lifetime to distribute our result slips -.-" When she was about to give our result slips, my hands were shaking like crazy till I thought I might break anytime soon. My breathing had become uneven, body was slowy numbing, stomach was tightened with knots (LOL), with butterflies and fishes (inside joke with Yayana cause I ate a part of her fish and both of us got stomachache) and my fingertips are frozen.

I'm feeling so perfuckedly fucked up with my results. Nevertheless, alhamdullilah, the grades appeared in my result slip are better than expected, I passed all, what an achievement? Relieved, delighted, very! But I think I'll be sitting for a lot of qualifying tests next year to see if I could continue and cope with the subjects I'm taking. Needless to say, I found there's no point studying for this EOY. It seems as if my results have ZERO effect. If I don't drop to combine, I'll be at the losing end. MANY PEOPLE advice me, its easy to get A for combine sci. but hello, you tell me, in this country, how many people are taking that? and its very risky. because what if i scored so well for eg chem, and so badly for physics. it would pull whole down my grade? Idk man. i feel so jealous those who take pure humans. like SOOOOOOOO PURE. i went popular. whoa. the books for pure geog, rocks okay? they studied about earthquakes, volcano all! more knowledgeable they would become! erghhhhh. and combine sci books so thin lah. if sci im glad to have thin books. hahahaha. but geog? pure geog is so damn interesting. me like. maybe if ive time i would just read it up some day(:

Oh well, my malay really cannot make it? I'm pleased with my humanities! hehehe. other semesters had really helped me. Well, its not so dependable, because o levels they would only count your Os, and I would be so screw up by then. Okay phew for my a math and chem! lucky for my physics! YAYYYYY. for the first time in my report book it was a passed. my pure bio? REALLY SUCK BALLZ. i just need one more mark. and yeah. congrats to REGINA KOH YEE PING! SHE hi-five with me (: WEI JUN, KIM XIN, RACHAEL AND TO ALL MY CLASSMATES TOO! FOR WE WILL BE IN THE SAME CLASS AGAIN NEXT YEAAARR~ HAHA. my remarks pathetic okay? why zayanah all got neat and meticulous in her work and im not?! pfffft. im neat too (as if) and jolene ? HAHA. im like way hardworking than her. hahaha. jk. well. touch wood. haha. SEAH is sooo hilarious lah! :]

I spent many dollars on chocolates! I just can't function without it.

Well, I'm showing you my results like I've always did? Fuck it. My Napha Test. How could I obtain a bronze in the end? WHEN THE FACT IS EVERYONE KNOWS I GOT ALMOST FIVE FOR EVERY THING. And I did way better than some people. I thought the worst I could achieve is silver, but in the end, its a pathetic idiotic moronic bronze. I rather got for NIL okay? MY HARD WORK ALL - BYEBYE. I'm so pissed with it.

Stars come out for 'This Is It' world premiere

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 09:26:53 GMT

who knows paris hilton could be that hawt :D

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Alright. You see my title up there.

This coming Friday is gonna be my turn! Woohooooo :D

&I WANNA GO TO US.

Curly booloo

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 17:39:16 GMT

show me the starlight, show me the sunbeams.

A sigh of contentment escapes, a sense of happiness contains itself within mah mind.
‘Baby, you want a doughnut?’

Its almost 12 midnight now.
Early in the morning today, I was disturbed by the bad weather. The rain was pouring down. Alamak, make me lose my mood to go out only! I wanted to wave the thoughts of going out today but I miss my most precious and beloved so much, Nana. My attempt to wake up around 9 failed. After bidding myself good morning, lifting myself from the bed and I immediately log into my msn account but this Nurul Adriana was not online. I thought she would be overslept or something. At the very least, she smsed me. We made our plans to head to town, where to meet, and where to be outta house.

Ordered and ate our wanton noodles with satisfaction (tempting, I tell you!). Roamed around Far East Plaza after we're done. Guess what, both of us didn't finish our meal! Jaws dropped? Haha. Nothing seems to capture my attention, hoho, except that, every single shop of sells like the exact same thing as the other shops! Adriana thought of buying this dress/top she've been yearning for so long, but its not worth it. After which, we proceed to other shopping centres! Haha, mcm yer yer nak go all shopping centres. Hah crazy! there's like gonna be a new shopping mall soon. Well, we managed to step into Ion, Heeren, cineleisure and blablabla!

My legs were already breaaaaaaaaking. She made me walked like mad! I got a punkstar free membership. HAHAHA. the aunty was so nice to me. I told nana, "maybe is because im too pretty!" hahaha. well, i was joking obviously. sad can't bummed into intan. i wanna see her short hair! and nana is sooo irritating to tease me about hakeem? haha, she's very outdated i tell you. sad case, same as most of my other friends who don't understand the ending enough. get the drift? okay so then snapped a new photos lah. nana was like, so jakun. both she and i! hehe. im lazy to elaborate further cause im already feeling sooo fatigue and downright sleepy now! i should be tucking in! okay then went home. dropped at hougang instead of kovan! took bus inter there

NANA PROMISED ME TO UPLOAD PICS LAYTAAAAAAAAAH! :D
oh yeah, mine is all at facebook.

p.s my security damn high ah. be smart enough to find my email, add me at msn first, and ask me to add you? haha, thats if im willing to. cause you can't even click my name if you're not in my friend list. (: no wonder nobody adds me! boohoo not!

I shall ponteng school later!

There are nights where I am unable to sleep, where it eludes me & questions without answers pester my mind. This face often appeared and stumbled out of nowhere. Your face, even slightly misted by the rain, you're always cared by me. I don't need to say the four letter word do I? You never fail to make me grin from ear to ear.

While to this you, there is a distinguishable hate between us which I can't seem to get rid of it no matter how hard I tried. A name so simple, yet it spikes fear, frustration and hatred in my heart. Even if you had done nothing wrong. But, I really just wanted to say thank you but I never got the chance.

my heart is still beating

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 03:43:01 GMT

FML.

AND.
I MISS KAK ATIKAH HEARTBEAT BBY DARLIN SO MUCH!
I MISS ADRIANA TOO! How I wish Fahrul could tag along. Sigh.

I hope intan feels better.

ARGH

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 18:02:50 GMT

I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING YOU. YOU YOU YOU.
and amilia calls me,
she'll name a movie about me;
Play Hard To Get

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